brainstorm

Well it's 12am on Sunday eve, and apparently that is my best blogging time because here I am again after a weekend that is prototypical of the last few years of my life (oh yes, some self-reflection!)

On Friday I went out with people from work, who bought an amount of alcohol possible of anaesthetizing a small elephant and proceeded to drink it all in a fairly unceremonious fashion. At some point early on I stopped myself from over-committing to the celebrations, memories of over-indulgences at similar parties in the past perhaps looming large. So while I sobered up, everyone around me became increasingly happy, and while I was enjoying myself and on "my game", I couldn't help but feel like an outsider looking in. It's hard to explain but I felt as if I was more of an observer than a participant.

When an attractive girl arrived with a girlfriend of mine, it appeared to be a turning point. Upon looking at my watch however I realized I had 20 minutes until I had to leave to catch the last bus home...my exit plan and a reason to not commit myself to the festivities (conscious or unconscious who knows?) After resolving to make an effort, I made the approach and in a fairly smooth way (looking back on it I am impressed with myself) introduced myself and after a few minutes had started a fun conversation. It was going so well in fact that I was thinking of ditching the bus and cabbing it home - until her friend on the other side of the room yelled for her to join. Which she politely did. Instead of staying and pursuing, I looked at my watch, said my goodbyes and made a mad dash for the bus. I took the easy way out, the safe route...and regretted it in the dark of the bus, watching TV on my iPod as the city lights faded behind me.

Well. It seems like a fairly dark post, but it isn't. I am optimistic and hopeful - and taking control.
To a fantastic week, remember to savour the good moments and learn from the bad.

Cheers.


P.S. Here's my next great line : If Life's a highway, then it's time to take your feet off the brake and put this fucker into overdrive.